Neither A Beginning Nor The End

Some of these days there's nothing left in me which I could write about, I don't know really why but it's really happening. I have never been in this much of a hard situation.

I had a few small setbacks in the past which I will be easily refreshed in a day. But now things are totally different, I'm not getting that old feeling when I write those short fictional stories. Before when I was writing, I was totally in love with the process, now I'm forcing myself to meet daily goals.

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I have researched a lot to find the reason and the result was not at all good. It was just like a chain, one reason connecting to the next and going on. I usually don't care that much about my posts reward, I care about it but I don't care about it more than the quality of it. If I write a shit post, even if no one reads it, I feel regret that I wrote something really bad.

I usually write with pen and paper, and after that, I used to type into my laptop. When I'm with the pen and paper I have a flow, usually, if I start writing, there will be words flowing faster than my pen could keep up. But now I can't even hold the pen to write the first line. I'm very much regretful about my recent posts, which I don't feel like natural, I pushed myself a lot to write it.

I usually put some real-time into reading every day to improve the writing, I can see a lot of mistakes in my writing and I want to clear it and create something more perfect. And I know reading is the best way to do it. I think I have to put more time to reading, otherwise, I can't write anything anymore.

Maybe it's the cause of the environment, it's been a month I have gone somewhere. There is nothing left to write from this environment. I have sucked all of its stories and now it's hollow. I think it's a time to take a break and concentrate on writing something else than philosophies and stories. I have to find a niche where I can adapt and write. There's not much ideas or stories left to create on my own at this time. Yeah, it's time to put a pause button for all those fictions.

This may seem like why I'm talking this to you. It's just cause I'm totally confused. Even if I'm not that much good at writing, It's the only thing I can do in this quarantine. I haven't had a clear idea of what I have to do next when I started writing this article, Now I think I've found something, I don't know!!.