Ladies of Hive Community Contest #83 || Devastating event

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Hi everyone, I am happy to be taking part in the 83rd edition of ladies of Hive contest #LOH and I will like to go for the first question.

What was the most devastating event in your life? Express your feelings and how you coped.

If anybody know when his or her time will end, everybody will try and do good for their end time. I wonder how time flies, 2020 was like yesterday.
I lost my dad to the cold hand of death on the 9th of July 2020. It was like a drama when they call me and told me that my dad have passed away.

January 2020, he call all of us his children to talk to us, he was telling us to do what ever we want to do that required his present on time because he don't have much time left. We are all like what is this man saying, it's not like he is sick or anything why talking about death.

After everyone have left, he called me back and told me to be quick about marriage because I was his only daughter remaining to get married and I told him I will whereas it's not yet his time to die, he did not say anything he just laughed.
Ramadan 2020, he asked me to come home that he wanted to see me, at first I don't want to go because everytime he sees me all he will talk about is marriage and we will fight before I left but I later decided to go and truth be told all he talked about was marriage and I told him it won't be long, he asked me to be hurry about it because he don't have much time. That's what we talked about last till I left.
On the 5th of July 2020, he told my mom to call all of us to come home that he wants to see us all and later called back that it's okay he will send someone to us. It's only my younger brother and my step brother that is with him on the 8th of July and they said he asked If they are going out the following day which is 9th of July because it's Sunday and they told him they are not going anywhere and he told them if they are going out they should come back earlier and he pray for them and the rest. They said after the prayer he started crying and asked them to leave and that is their last discussion.
The following morning, my younger brother said he entered his room to greet him and he was calling him no answer, on a normal day no matter how long my dad is sleeping, if we enter his room he will wake up. My brother said he called him for three times no answer, he wanted touch him to wake him up but his body was so cold. He didn't know what to do so he rushed out to call mum and that is the end.

I don't know what I feel when they called, maybe I was devastated or angry at myself that I didn't go when he asked us to come, even though he asked us not to come again, he doesn't mean it, he was actually waiting for us but thought it will stress us. But after all I have to be strong because I still have a mum to look after for she is not that strong.
I still missed him even though we used to argue every single time but that makes me miss him more, no one to argue with when I go home again. Only if I know, I could have take a lot of pictures together and tell him all the things I want to tell him but it's late before I realized it everytime he scold me, I always thought he hate me not knowing he's showing me all his love.
The death of loved ones is not really easy to cope with but there is nothing we can do about

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