Facing a Depressing Christmas Holidays


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Source: Image from Dzenina Lukac and edited in Canva

Due to the difficulty facing my financial status this month, I am facing a dilemma that is against my will. I want to focus on my studies to finish them, but because of the difficulties of life, I have to first support my own needs and those of my son, who is also currently in grade three. In truth, we are not suffering at all. Almost all four of us have different sources of income. My sister works as an HR professional in a large corporation and is also a psychometrician. The one who came after me, my brother, is a junior architect, and our youngest works in a call center for a big company here in Metro Manila. Although our father lost his job as a manager, he still worked hard as a delivery man. And by January, he will be back in the office again. See? After all, I'm still lucky. But I have personal things that I think about a lot. First, I don't want to rely on her again. I've been independent for a few years and also supporting our family, and I really don't want to go back to the beginning. Second, my mom doesn't treat me well. For sure, mom would be angry again when I completely relied on my sister and our father again.

These are just some of the reasons why I don't want to stop looking for a job. Let's just add the difficulty of life here in another country. Maybe if I were in another country, I would also prefer to go dumpster diving to at least save money on living.

If I ever get my dream job, I'll probably save more time by working somewhere else. I think there are also many people who like this kind of flexible working arrangement. So because I'm very thirsty for this type of industry, I decided to look for free virtual courses and also watch some tutorials on YouTube on how to start being a VA.

To be honest, I'm really dazzled by the amount of money I can earn by working like this. Of course, you must have sufficient knowledge to complete this type of work. So while I was studying tutorials on becoming a VA, I immediately thought about and tried to open my Jobstreet account and my LinkedIn account to look for jobs that I could apply for. I ended up sending my resume to some BPO companies. And I was just surprised because I wasn't really prepared to talk on the phone earlier on Monday, but I was deliberately tested today. I only talked to four recruiters. And you know how I feel after talking to them? It's just motivating because at first, I was too shy to answer recruiters' calls because I also had a problem speaking English. But actually, it turns out that it only becomes difficult when you start off nervously.

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I am still awaiting some final interviews as of today, Thursday. Since the other companies I applied to haven't informed me of the status of my application, I'll be honest and say that I'm losing faith that I'll get accepted. Since I've been doing research for the job I desire, my stress level is escalating, and I haven't had much sleep. I'm doing everything I can to comfort myself, but it looks like fate isn't interested right now. In all honesty, waiting is exhausting, especially when you have no idea how long you'll be waiting. I gave in to self-pity and just started crying.

I have made numerous appearances on the dean's list since first year, so if the possibility to write articles is very amazing, I might choose to focus on my academic studies instead of looking for a job outside.

Anyways, still wishing everyone to have a Merry Christmas. ❄❄

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You should start believing in yourself more than you are doing at the moment, sometimes we just need a little faith to ignite the power of our effort.

It can be really challenging to be studying and at the same time paying for a child's studies. I believe things will fall in place for you so don't panic.

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Actually, I'm really trying to ease myself. But pressure always comes in and I tend to get anxious immediately. I believe that my time will come but I really starting to get demotivated. 😪😪

Thank you sir @george-dee 💖

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Please don't be demotivated, I have always known you to be a strong woman.

Everything will be fine, just believe.

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Good luck hopefully you can get one of the jobs! One thing you have to keep in mind is that you will need to probably do things that aren’t the ideal working situation you want. You should never shy away from these because they build character and allow you to broaden your experience. Don’t go jumping between jobs every 3 months though because that looks worse than working for a company in a job that’s not directly related to what you want to do, for a year before moving into the next. Companies want people who will be willing to stay and work for them and if you hop around or don’t have any other jobs you’ve done, they are less likely to hire.

In the end, it’s good to work what you think you can be good and relevant at even if it’s not the exact one you want. Look for decent money but don’t expect to earn significant amounts until you have a few years under your belt. It’s also not good to ask about wages off the get go unless they ask you first.

Also the holidays are not good for hiring because they know people are off. February is usually when it picks back up.

Hope things work out in the end for you!

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First of all, thank you very much for commenting on my blog. Actually, I felt a little more demotivated, especially since Christmas. I feel like, at my age, I'm late in everything when I should be in the middle of my career.

Thank you so much for the reminders. To be honest, I'm not really 100 percent sure if I can really work given that I want to continue studying. I feel that there are many opportunities that I can try since there are still many people who have wfh and virtual set up.

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Anything is possible with some determination and motivation. People, myself included, really like working from home but not all jobs and companies want that so there is ample opportunity if you can think creatively!

It’s sometimes hard to start at a later age but it’s also good to keep trying. Sometimes the best employees are the ones who have had several years not working or raising a family or something like that instead of the ones fresh out of high school then college. Some of the best people I’ve worked with started a career late in life and they bring a good set of skills and world knowledge that can be very valuable! Don’t be down on yourself because that can also be detrimental. Being too optimistic isn’t great either but we should have a degree of optimism especially when looking for a job!

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