I finished the hardest shift (so far) I have ever been on. One week where you could be called to handle a case that the general practitioner (another doctor) thinks is related to your team at any moment in the night or day. As the house officer in the team, I am supposed to see the patients first.

I am glad I had the chance of learning under the resident doctors I was under. Ideally, there are supposed to be more house officers than residents in a team so that more cases will be handled and also some more experienced house officers (with about 6 months experience) would be teaching those with less experience, But in this center, I had to pick up skills as quickly as possible because if I didn't I'd be screwed in the next unit.

The senior registrar in the unit was a really chill guy who is cool to hang out with. Then the other registers were a guy and a catholic church sister who to me were like experienced house officers except they weren't.

They had different methods of teaching, one would prefer to do it in front of you till you learned it...that's the guy. His method had the flaw of not realizing when I was not learning...but gave me a visual goal to climb to.

The sister was more of the kind that would do it once and hope you picked up everything and built intuition for yourself. It led oftentimes to her expecting a lot from me and sometimes getting disappointed. Which meant I was disappointed in myself and also needed to step up.

All in all the two put together made for the perfect learning environment.

By no fault of mine, I studied medicine for 8 years. It was Corona's fault but...here I am today. It has been slightly easier to get internships space because of the reduced competition now. So I'm taking the good and the bad.

During the pandemic, I also have been doing some soul searching and found that I really love psychiatry.

So today I will be enlightening everyone on where I'm going...at least where I think I am going with my life.

I Hope to see Jordan Peterson someday

I've found myself a role model in life, someone to shape my life after...sort of. I mean then again Jordan is not a blogger and I am, so we are kind of different.

He also is a Canadian and I'm from Nigeria. Circumstances are different around here. That is not to deny him of his own story, it's just to say that we have had different challenges.

In order to meet Jordan in a position where I'd be listened to by him, I have to build myself to the point where an authority such as himself would want to listen to me.

Right now I think if I was in a room with him there would be too many distractions given that other people would be trying to talk to him. If it were one on one it would just turn into one of those "fans meeting him to talk about how he changed their life situations".

I want it to be memorable for him too. I want us to discuss a study, I want him to be interested in hearing from me about it.

In order to do that someday, I have to build a significant amount of knowledge in his topics. He is a Clinical psychologist. I have to attain that status too.

I want to study psychiatry after my Internship as a doctor. I'm yet to know which institution will be the best in Nigeria.

I'm however trying to get out of the country with foreign exams like PLAB to study in the UK. The total cost for the exam plus Visa and International passport should cost somewhere like $30,000 and I have been taking it slow while keeping my ears peeled for residency in Nigeria in Psychiatry.

While doing my residency, I hope to pick up a form for my master's degree...Though I doubt I would have the time...I like the challenge. I'd need to lecture in psychology and put out publications in psychology after doing my own research and making findings.

I'd like to be his student after challenging and confirming some of his ideas. So he'd have already heard about me and be eager to meet me...I think. Or at least be some sort of African Jordan.

It's all a long-term plan for now. But I'm certain there is something for me in psychiatry.

Hope you enjoyed reading about my dreams?

PEACE!!