Just A Little Bit Rant Of Me About Life Lately

Hello Dear...
I wanna write this post in hope that i will feel a little bit better after writing this.
Since my main goal joining blockchain is to heal my heart.
Lately, i feel even more lost.
Well not lost, maybe just a bit stressful.
And like usual, my stress affecting my health.
So its very hard for me to write in my poor health.
Usually, when i had a hard time, i will have a headache all day long and my body is just doesnt have any energy.

Do any of you have similar situation with me?

What should i do?
I forced myself to do things that i normally like and normally do.
For example, in the past few days i forced myself to write.
I force my self to make a video.
I force my self to eat.
I force myself to wash.
I force myself to contacting my friends too because its very very important to not out of touch from environment when i am in a slump.
I believe that the more i let myself to get swayed by my emotions, the longer the slumps last.

But, i should heal from whatever it is.
I hope that we all will get healed in 2021.
I hope that i stopped being scared of the future.
Its making me so lonely even though i very well knows that im never alone.
I have so many good people around me acts as my best support system.

Huh guys, every time i sleep seems like i got worse.
Even since this morning i have cramp on my neck because of my wrong sleeping position.
I wish that things will get better the next time i opened my eyes from sleeping.
Im kinda tired but i will not give up forcing myself to do better for my better future.