CRUSHING ON MY BEST FRIEND..

When I see two lovers I always wonder how it all began because I always say to my self that I can't really fall in love like that which makes most of my friend always laugh at me saying one day when I will finally fall in love I will know how it feels.

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Due to the fact that I don't want to fall in love with anyhow person because my Friend do use this word for me HARD TO GET WILL LATER BE SOFT WHEN HE FALL IN LOVE , I had to always keep female friends so I can be comfortable and get attention anytime.

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I have this friend of mine her name is Beatrice she is one of my closest friend I ever had in my life she is more than a best friend to me the way we relate anytime we are together always make people and even her friends have the thinking of we two dating each other.

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She comes to my house anytime due to the level of intimacy we had, we talk almost everyday and chat. It got to a stage when I wasn't feeling okay at all that she would spend most of her time with me and sometimes sleep over at my place. We do almost everything in common..

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It got to a stage another feeling start coming to my mind everyday, I was already having crush on my best friend but I couldn't say it out, I had to control and change that mindset because if I don't do that I am having the fear that I could loose the friendship and all those things we already had in common would be a waste.

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Anytime I have a close friend I wouldn't want anything that would disrupt or spoil our friendship so i just free my mind and everything came back to normal the way we use to do