RE: Deconstruction of my Mind: a piece of speculation
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This piece took my breath away, @warpedpoetic. It explores a world of altered consciousness that one can understand only by going there. To those of us who can only imagine, it feels very raw and real and authentic. I believe one can hunger for something beyond this world and this life with all of its rhythms and problems, and then, upon finding it, feel an ever growing need to experience its most powerful moments. Even beyond knowing the reason one sought an elevated reality in the first place. Even at risk of death in the pursuit of it.
There are so many powerful ideas in this piece.
You know now that just beyond the realm of deeds, beyond the realm of thought, there lies a world on which you are god. In that world, once upon a time, you separated the waters into two, one below and the other above. You said let there be light and it was so. You hung the sun, the moon and the stars in the sky. You planted the first trees, the first grass, the first fishes in the sea. You saw that it was beautiful. You made something in your image and nature to guard and guide all that you have made. You loved it and taught it. It broke your heart and you fled.
This is just one passage that really brought into focus for me the agony and devastating longing of addiction. Isn't that what we all want in some way - to feel that we are in control, that we have power, that we have an impact and that we have made something that outlasts time?
Beautiful work, @warpedpoetic.
Indeed @jayna addiction is its own poison. It is better not to leap into that abyss. For to return back to the top is a task that most never achieve. And seeking something extraordinary especially when dissatisfied with the ordinariness of day to day living can lead to such addiction.
I have wandered once into my mind, passed the colours and stared down at the darkness beyond. I knew at that moment if I opened that door and stepped through I will never find myself again. I fled. Did it help my addictions? No. I still think of that place. I still wonder what it is, what it would mean to disappear in such a way.
Thanks for reading and enjoying this. It means a lot to me.