A Night In The Cloud(POB-WOTW: BITTER)

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A night in the clouds
Far away from the earth
I still wonder how I managed to breathe
A night in the clouds
Every night in the clouds

Crack the ice, it’s a fire inside
It can consume a tower
But it’s frozen and still burning hard
Still the ice is yet to melt

I can see from the clouds
The roaring lion, not even the ant is terrified, the lion is without hair
But I’m terrified, how do I get to my bed?

This piece came to my head the day I read my girlfriend chats when she was sick for like two weeks and I spent all the money in my account on her but one night while she was asleep I just decided to unlock her mobile phone and viewed some pictures on it. When I was done with the pictures, something pushed me to read her WhatsApp messages and I did, things fell apart and my heart became so painful and I had to use the gent and I later called my neighbor to meet me outside the house because I needed a shoulder to cry on. What I saw that day was beyond my age, I found out that the man she called her uncle was one of her sugar daddies and she do visit this man every weekend. She had three other relationships apart from ours.

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My neighbor told me not to confront her and just learn to move away from her gradually but I refused and when it was morning, I confronted her and she told me to avoid her that she needed a space, I was shocked with this response because I was expecting her to feel remorseful but reverse is the case and I cried like a wounded lion.

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My pain was nothing to her and she walked away and she came back to apologise after few days and I accepted her because I couldn't survive without her though I don't want her again but my emotion is so attached to her.

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Remembering her actions everyday is killing me softly.
How do I live with you when you convey bitterness? I tried all my efforts to make you smile but all you give me is bitterness. Imagine the pain of seeing someone you love loving someone else.Imagine when your pain, your cry is being enjoyed by someone you love.
I pray we don't end up with someone we won't be able to leave when they keep hurt us emotionally. I pray we don't get stalked forever where we are not wanted.

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